This Is the Life

Listening to the music,
Flashes of two past loves
Bioshock and Her

A strange sensation..

We will lose

Do we ever really learn from the past?

Or do we just lose a little more of what we once knew,

What we once held to be true, with such certainty

Is there any hope left for a brighter future?

Or are we born with it all, only to lose it,

Either gradually or all at once

Some things are certain...

...we will lose

Listen to the battle raging

Illegal post time? according to who?

I wonder what society would do should I do nothing? Force me to do something? What if I don't want to be part of your society? Don't want to be part of your world? I probaly don't have a choice do I?

Or not..?

Oh well, the world didn't end, yet...

I wonder what I am to other people? A question I constantly ask myself, but never really answer

So what am I doing? Nothing in particuler and I don't know why?

Wish I had a clue

I wish I could stay more positive,

Wish there were more positive people in the world,

I wish I knew what peoples true intentions were,

Maybe I have trust issues?

Steamed from my parents no doubt..

I want to be the strong one,

because I'm always disappointed when I rely on someone else,

and even as I am some people rely on me, and I fear i'll lead them astray,

hurt them like I have been hurt,

maybe its all just one big cycle

or maybe there is no order to it all

but does it really matter?

I don't know, ask a phycologist

Dooms Day

The world ends tomorrow! repent fools! repent!!

Or so thats what I hear anyway, very few people seem concerned by it? I wonder why? Do they trust the people doing this to be right or do they just not care? meh, why do I care for that matter? If the world does end dosn't really matter to me though, we all die sometime, might as well be tomorrow

Today I did what I always do, waste time

I shared the poem I wrote in a fit of anger and despair with one of my oldest and by far dearest friends(even so its hard to find time to spend together, but thats no different then anyone else now a days). He is always one I can count on for an honest and civalised answer. He understood just what I was trying to say and what i'm going threw, was a lovely debate about it.

Nice to know someone cares at least, and maybe sometime I'll put the poem up here, no promises on a spectaculer piece of work, but it expresses how I feel at this time, and thats what poetry is all about.

The music plays away, hoping it will carry me to a better place...

Like you know

The pain here that I feel, try and tell me its not real..

meh

We walk by so many people each day,

I wonder what their thinking?

I wonder if their thinking the same thing?

The Land Before Time

She started talking to me today? Not sure what to make of it? Its been so long. Seemed very nice, as if nothing had happened, maybe thats the way I should be..

Maybe we can still be friends in the end, not like we were but still, what more can I hope for

Watched an old movie from my childhood today. Brought back tears

why worry?

Ah why worry things could be so much worse,

so the girl I loved that broke my heart and left me like I was nothing has got a new guy,
moanings not gonna anything about it? being sads not gonna help,

I need to move on, as I've been told(by my own guardian angel as I sometimes refer to her,) so many times, its just gonna take time, which I have lots off luckily

"Would you kindly?"

OMG! I'm a tool!!! :O

If you get this then I love you :)

Best game ever

a few things running threw my head

Why do other people make life look so easy? Or am I just that bad at it?

Or maybe I see a lot less then I think I do? Or a lot less then I wish I did?

I don't even understand myself, so I havn't got a hope in hell of understanding you? Why fool myself?

Always with the questions? ? ? ? ?

Can I never relax in what I know

or must I always look on to the next question?

Welcome to me

Not sure what to say right away?

Welcome to all who take an interest in my writings, which would suprise me to be honest?

Not sure what i'm doing with my life? Feel lost in the woods so to speak. Another thing to know about me is I think to much, though I am working on quieting my mind if it is at all possible. By the way if you don't like me then please feel free to keep it to yourself. I imagine enough people hating me as it is.

As you can probaly tell i'm not in the best mood, but i'll hide behind a smiling face all the same. Just because i'm sad dosn't mean you should be. I'd rather not spread the sorrow.

Thats all I can think of for the moment, sorry it couldn't be more cheerful. I also apologise too much, I'm just weird in general. Its what I do